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2013 Bucket List January 4, 2013

Posted by phoenixhopes in Bucket List, Creating, Knitting, New Years.
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I don’t like New Year’s Resolutions. Overall they seem like a negative thing, like I’m defining the person I think I should be instead of being the one I already am. I refuse to make a list of goals I’ll never meet. Making that list seems like an excellent way to feel bad about myself and think I’m a failure. Is there anyone who honestly keeps their Resolutions?

Instead I’m making a 2013 Bucket List. These are all things I want to do or learn. The Bucket List is simply a way to keep track of them and help make sure I make some progress over the year.

  1. Learn to make delicious Gluten Free Sandwich Bread. I’ve been GF for two years now. The first year my focus was on cleaning up my diet and finding replacements as appropriate. The next year I tried and was successful with some great baking recipes. The Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Squares in Gluten Free on a Shoestring is so delicious even my wheat-eating co-workers ask me to bring it on food days. I’ve made some acceptable cookies and awesome cobbler. But so far sandwich bread that tastes remotely like “real” bread has eluded me. This year, I’ll figure it out.
  2. Spin enough yarn to make something and then make that something. June 2011 I took a drop spindle class and absolutely loved it. The magic of knitting — using sticks and string to make something useful and/or beautiful — amazes me. Now I can take wool and turn that into string and then make something beautiful! Except I haven’t followed through with that. I’ve purchased some roving to play with but it hasn’t come near my spindle. This year, it will happen.
  3. Get a Passport. I don’t have plans to go anywhere (yet) but I want to be ready when the opportunity arises. A Passport is the first step on an unknown adventure.
  4. Attend WI-UMW School of Missions. I was able to go last year and it was life changing. I loved the classes and making connections with other like-minded women in my state. I’m making going again this year a priority and hope to drag some other women from church along with me.

There are definitely more things I plan to do in 2013 — I have long lists of projects to do, places to go, people to see — but nothing else I feel strongly enough to commit to publishing. It’s going to be an exciting year!



My Very Own Personal Fiscal Year September 1, 2012

Posted by phoenixhopes in Consumerism, Goals, life, New Years, thoughts, Uncategorized.
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Later this month I turn 54, solidly in my mid-fifties, no hiding from middle age. (Honestly, I don’t expect to live to 100 or more so shouldn’t the fifties be called something other than middle age?) The main thing that I think about when I consider my age is that I really thought I’d have my life together by now. Instead, here I am still desperately trying to figure out who I want to be when I grow up.

I’ve decided to stop trying to figure that out and simply be who I am today. I am a woman, a mother, a friend, a church member, an employee. I read for fun, for information, for escape and watch movies and tv for the same reasons. I’m an introvert who can sometimes be quite outgoing. I’m single for now (hopefully not forever but I will never again compromise who I am to be with someone). I have trust issues: I’ll trust you until you hurt me and then I may never trust you again. I’ve struggled with my weight my entire life. I have a difficult time-saving money because there always seems to be something important and urgent to spend it on. I was surprised to find out I like preaching. I tend to over commit. I am a much calmer person when I have a creative outlet of some sort. Sometimes I over think things. I like reading about politics but not so much discussing it. I’m rather competitive and not a very gracious loser. I hate being put on the spot. To sum it all up: I’m a complex person and although most of the time I’m satisfied with who I am, I can see at least some of my flaws well enough to want to work on them.

I decided to see the next twelve months as my very own personal fiscal year. A new birthday equals a new beginning. I want to take stock of where I am and think about where I want to be twelve months from now. My main goal is to be more mindful about my life – am I living a life that is consistent with what I say are my values? Where is my money going? How am I spending my time? How is my soul? What satisfies me?

I’ll use the blog to share the journey.

Neil Gaiman’s New Year Benediction December 31, 2011

Posted by phoenixhopes in Holidays, Neil Gaiman, New Years, Uncategorized.
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May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art – write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. May your coming year be a wonderful thing in which you dream both dangerously and outrageously.I hope you’ll make something that didn’t exist before you made it, that you will be loved and you will be liked and you will have people to love and to like in return. And most importantly, because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now – I hope that you will, when you need to be, be wise and that you will always be kind. And I hope that somewhere in the next year you surprise yourself

And his New Year wish for 2011

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.
So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.
Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.
Make your mistakes, next year and forever.
I like that and plan to make plenty of new mistakes in 2012